This is killing me!!! I want a ciggerett so bad!!!! this is killing me more than smoking EVER COULD!!!!!

i'm really tired and need to start studying again for biology, i only have one more chapter, then need to review each chapter again a bit before bed.

I made the mistake of looking at pictures of them, all happy, it makes me sad... because... idk... i almost want them to be together just so he can be happy... but at the same time i want to be greedy and have him all for myself when i don't even have him. ridiculous. he has a quote about them when they were together:

"The great thing about her is when you look in her eyes, and she's looking back in yours, everything feels not quite normal, because you feel stronger, and weaker at the same time. You feel excited, and at the same time, terrified. The truth is you don't know what you feel, except you know what kind of man you want to be. It's as if you've reached the unreachable, and you weren't ready for it."

^isn't that So sweet? makes me want to kick someones ass lol.
Idk... i don't think I'm woman enough to make anyone feel like that, or atleast when i think about how people feel when they like me or how i feel when i care about someone... it's never as deep as that...