I'm in the library and should be studying for biology.

I feel so alone
I don't feel like I have a lot of close friends....
Idk, i feel like shit, like a bitch.
I think I lost amanda as a friend.... and christina.... idk.... It sucks to even think about.
And it feels like keeping a relationship with them is too hard, it's just seems like a hastle, and it feels like it's already broken.


apparently my problem is that I don't let people get to know me, or i fuck up whatever relationship i'm in.

this is going to sound bitchy:
but maybe they weren't good for me either. Maybe I deserve friends that aren't going to make me feel like shit all the time.